Trying to no fail

Times have changes
n ma destiny is rearranged
back in ma own hands
so the seeds sown from ma own fingures,
show me that things were blown thrown were from my own wrong deeds.
for the greed of fun
that me n my pals agreed
and the things remained undone
if ain't undone ,they remained unsatisfactory
placing bets on marks lottery
n now the dog of pain bark at me.
What I did was just all times trying trying!!
when da world punched, what i did was just cryin cryin!!:-(
1 time, 2 times I PRETENDED to be trying trying
WHen the world stared i defended what i pretended to be trying trying
tryin ain't matter when we fail n our dreams shatter
but the latter gives the boat to sail to dream n TRYING TO NO FAIL.